Friday, January 20, 2012

Do I have Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder?

Ever since I was young, I've been obsessed with keeping things tidy, but these last few years, I've become violent whenever I see things out of order. For instance, when I see lint on my carpet, I pick it up, then I see another lint, and I eventually bring out the vacuum and clean my entire room. But I also swear, yell, grumble, grunt, kick and bang things while doing this. It's gotten to the point that I've started yelling at my mom just for being in my room? I feel so ashamed, but then I see her touching my things (because she borrows my computer) and I feel like everything she touches is dirty, and I have to clean it. I nitpick at everything she does, like when she sneezes, I hand her a tissue right away, then I disinfect my whole desk, then clean my entire room again, swearing and yelling again (I try not to let her hear me/see me in this way), but she knows I'm like this...and she says things like, "What's wrong with you?" I know I have a problem, I just don't know what kind. I want to fix it, and I don't want to appear like a mad woman because no one understands me, or I don't understand what's wrong with me. Please tell me, what kind of problem do I have? OCPD? OCD? Anxiety? Nothing? How can I improve myself? Thank you for any help in advance.

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