Wiccan solitary practitioners electic ( don't know if that's the right spelling mines horrid) :)?

Hey Im a solitary practicioner and I was just wonder am I the only one who gets lonely? What is it like to be in a coven? I mean I don't neccesarly want to be in a coven but I'm not sure it could help to just have some Wiccan friends just sometimes I feel lonely like when I'm not doing a ritual even when I do the small ones I feel completely alive full of comfort and I often get light heade after is that normal and when I'm not in my sacred space and I just want to be able to talk someone with similiar beliefs? I'm extremely shy and I liven in a very cathloc community also I'm the youngest Wiccan in y town as in there's others but all twenty up I'm just wondering if it's normal to feel lonely? My friend liegh lives in Cali and she is Wiccan when she comes up we do our rituals together and the feeling I get is stronger is that normal? And why are people so mean when they find out I'm Wiccan? I've had people tell me to hid it but why? Why should I hide it I'm not ashamed of my beliefs I feel strongly about my religion how is that bad? Tunis for the help!